FF

I used to have Peter Pan type feelings. Now, I just wanna fast forward through the next few years. I wanna fast forward to when I've gotten my education, I've figured out what I want to do with my life, have a job/career and I'm stable. I wanna be independent. Capable of taking care of myself and paying all my own bills. Being independent just sounds so appealing.

Its very frustrating not having any of those things. I suppose you could call me a control freak. I want everything to be just right. To be perfect for me. To be set. Being dependent on someone makes things hard to control. What if that person can't take care of you anymore? What if that person changes things and it isn't what you want? I suppose beggers can't be choosers... but I'd rather not be a begger.

I love my parents for all they've given me. But I really want to get started on my own life.