I'm scared of losing one of the few people I care about. I'm scared about him leaving. I'm scared of our relationship falling apart with the distance. Is it selfish of me to hope he doesn't get what he wants? Even if it is what's best for him in his life? I feel myself falling back to where I was last year, and thats the last thing I ever want for myself. The feeling in my gut, in my throat, and the clenching in my chest is the worst feeling to ever have.

Lets hope things work out.