This is the most amazing thing I've seen in a long time. I truly appreciate portraits. I'm a closet portrait drawer myself. Very few people have seen what I have done. I hate showing it to people because I think I suck. But then I love when people tell me they like it. I don't know, maybe I'll post or something. Once I get the camera I want, that is.

. Its my birthday today (Blogspot says is still the twenty-sixth. It lies).

. Busch Gardens with Ryan, Brian and Rachel.

. Massage with Rachel Tuesday (thanks Steven).

. Hot yoga Wednesday with Susan.

. Joey's coming now.

. WHERE CAN I SIGN?!

. Nose pierced. Again.

. So happy you remembered and called.

. Last day of work is the fourth (cannot wait).

. Moving in the ninth?

. Orientation the tenth.

. So much going on, so happy for the change.

"Everything Will Change"

There are days when I'm so happy that statement is true, and wish it would happen as soon as possible. Then there are days when I wish things would go back to where they were before. I'm never satisfied with the way things are. I want everything to be my way, all the time. I'm greedy I suppose. But I don't see that as a bad thing, nor do I see it as weird.

I just want to be content with everything.

Of course, with some thing falling into place, others must fall out.

I want to quote the conversation from Veronica Mars between Logan and Veronica. I know the exact season, disk, episode (Season two, disk five, episode four). No one knows what I'm talking about, but I think of [the] story as epic.

I've been so lost with out my macbook, and my poor little blog has gone so unloved.

So much has happened recently. Everyone already knows I got into VCU. It's slightly ironic that I got in when I was in one of those moods, as last post explains. But I'm still very excited. The other emotion I'm feeling too much of is of course anxiety. I have been so close to freaking out the past couple of weeks its slightly ridiculous. I haven't felt this much anxiety in I don't know how long. I'm so scared. I'm scared of not having a place to live (which is a HUGE possibility right now), I'm scared of being on my own, I'm scared of meeting all kinds of new people. I'm scared. I'm scared of messing up everything I worked so hard to get. I'm scared of failing at it miserably and having to come back home. I'm just scared of the future. Its so weird to think that I'm going to be away from home. Since my parents were so strict and sheltering when I was a kid, I'm so used to having them do everything for me. Its going to be weird.

One ginormous perk of going away? No more Cold Stone! I'm so ready to quit my job. The two and a half years I've put into that place are finally coming to an end. I'm happy and sad. I'm happy, because of obvious reasons. I was so frustrated and bored with my job for a while there, so to be able to leave is rewarding. But I'm sad because I'm leaving some people I love. Ever since Ryan and Brian have worked there its been different. Brian still frustrates me like crazy but its better to have him working than some of the other kids. And then Ryan and I hang out so much more now. I love it. I'm also going to miss a few people. Some are leaving for school too, and some have already moved away, but its still going to be weird and sad. Also, Forever 21 called me this morning looking to either give me an interview or give me a job. I unfortunately had to turn it down because of school but told her I'd love to work there during holidays. She put my application in a folder and said to just turn in another application and she'd know. So I think I already might have another job lined up? Stuff is just falling into place.

I have an appointment to see an apartment in Richmond on Saturday. Hopefully this just falls into place as well.