Complaints

I'm feeling horribly sick and have been all day. Nathan, being the amazing boyfriend he is, took care of me most of the day (til I had to leave for Richmond). I have to say, this is the best thing happening to me right now. To have someone caring about me just as much as I care for them and for everything to be running smoothly is the best feeling.

But I do have some complaints. Not for Nathan, but for my friends. Its annoying how immature everyone is. How a simple facebook joke can turn into people deleting others and getting upset.

Nathan and I posted each other's statuses the other day, joking around. They were mushy and obnoxious and we know it. Of course my "friends" had to go make their little comments, which we expected, but it ended up going too far in my opinion. Its annoying how hateful all of my friends are sometimes. When things aren't going right in their lives, they have to rain on mine. Or how when they have nothing better going on they have to try and bring others down. Or hate on something that I care about. Its hard to sit here and think that these people are my friends.

Sometimes I really do wonder why I am friends with some of these people. People who think its okay to constantly make fun of each other as if its what you're supposed to do in a friendship. And since they're your "friend", they know the things to pick on. I hate that my personal life gets thrown out into the public for everyone to know and becomes a big joke. I hate that everyone thinks its okay to say shit to me, but when I say something back I become a bitch and people think I'm being ridiculous. I hate how people use me not talking to them and facebook fights as a reason to not consider me a friend?

I'm tired of doing all the work for friendships. I'm tired of being the butt of the jokes just because I'm a girl and because I won't say anything. I'm tired of friends taking advantage of me. I'm tired of accepting the immature shit from everyone. I've tried to be nicer over the past year or so and have always been the type of person to avoid conflict with friends because I dislike it so much but I've really had enough.

/rant.

Black and White.

I've been thinking a lot lately about what it'd be like to not have roommates, to not have to share anything and to live by myself. I've thought about this for years, its something that I want greatly, and have wanted. I think if I had a place it would be calm and relaxing and cleanly.

I want a black and white living room. Plain and simple and sophisticated and artistic.

Black and white bedrooms.

Black and white bathrooms.

Black and white kitchen.

Black and white dining room.

Are you noticing a trend? Maybe a few splashed of color here and there. But I just want plain, simple and sophisticated. There will be candles everywhere (B&W?). There will be a black and/or white cat roaming as he pleases. There will be chandeliers, because nothing says sophisticated like a chandelier. I want black and white photographs and paintings gracing the walls.

I JUST WANT TO GROW UP. To have a real life, not this college bullshit. This isn't the real life.

alright sweet

I'm fuckin up big time.

1. school is shitting

2. hand is second degree burnt (again, thank you Joey for making me go to the doctor)

3. stress is building

4. money is low.

life rules.....

This weekend was probably the best evarrrrrr. Nathan came to visit me and stayed all weekend. Friday we saw 2012. I kinda didn't want to because, you know, that shits hella depressing to think about, but it was actually a really good movie. When we weren't stealing kisses, I found myself on the edge of my seat wondering what would happen and if they would make it and how the world would end. I would greatly recommend it, it's worth the $16 I paid for us to see it.

Saturday morning we woke up and went to get our futures read. Let me say, with one good purchase, we had to have a bad one. The $20 he paid were a complete waste. Ginger, our psychic, was of course very vague and nowhere near on point with anything going on in our lives. She said all the things people typically go through in their lives, i.e. job decisions, relationship decisions, health problems, etc etc. I racked my brain trying to figure out how to relate it to myself so that it wasn't a complete waste with no luck. I just want to say to Ginger, yo girl, you don't know shit. After that we went to Target, bought $30 in movies (How the Grinch Stole Christmas with Jim Carrey was my gold purchase) and had a movie night/cuddlefest.

Sunday we woke up and went walking around Richmond. He brought his camera and got some sweet shots of us and of Richmond. I didn't even try, he blows me out of the water with how much better he is than me. We then went to Starbucks then went home and watched more movies. We are the laziest couple of all time.

Movie theatre: $16

Psychic reading: $20

DVDs: $30

Spending the weekend with someone you care about: priceless.

Did I mention that we have a contest to see who could be cheesier/cuter? I got 2 points for that one.

I'm really upset the hit my education is taking. I hate that I got last pick of classes/teachers for this semester. Its really discouraging for my first semester at a new school. I really wish I Was a better student and had better teachers and knew what I wanted to do with my future. So aggravated.

This weekend should rule, if everything goes right. Tomorrow I'm driving back to Virginia Beach with Diana. Then hanging out with Nathan, which I'm super excited about. Saturday I'm taking Brittney to get her first tattoo. I think I'm more excited than she is. She's getting a quote from her favourite book on her ribs. She's probably gonna be in a lot of pain, but I know she'll be happy with it.

Today is taking forever to get over with. I just want tomorrow to be here RIGHT NOW.